I always want to post honestly about motherhood. Sometimes that means that I want to write about how exhausted I am, how my kid only naps for what seems like 10 seconds a day, and how I feel a little overwhelmed by the fact that things don’t seem to slow down. Every day is full. Full of responsibilities for this little life. If I sat and thought about the weight of that responsibility for too long, I’d start getting chest pains.
However I read something tonight that so challenged me. You know when you come across something that breathes life into your spirit, makes you sigh with relief and makes you feel not alone in your journey? – this article did that for me today.
I’ve been guilty of letting that feeling of responsibility steal the joy of looking after my son at times. The newness of motherhood, and especially of having my own family so far away during such an important life-change has often led me down the path of feeling sorry for myself, or being overly nostalgic about how carefree life was, pre-Levi. I really don’t want to do life like that and this article has really challenged me to view my role in a different light. As a Christian, I am challenged by how this attitude shapes my parenting…
Live the gospel in the things that no one sees. Sacrifice for your children in places that only they will know about. Put their value ahead of yours. Grow them up in the clean air of gospel living. Your testimony to the gospel in the little details of your life is more valuable to them than you can imagine. If you tell them the gospel, but live to yourself, they will never believe it. Give your life for theirs every day, joyfully. Lay down pettiness. Lay down fussiness. Lay down resentment about the dishes, about the laundry, about how no one knows how hard you work.
When I consider life over the last 6 months since this little boy came into our world, I seem to have found myself more directed in the things that are most important to me. I feel like I’m investing in the stuff that defines who I really am, rather than chasing after the temporary excitements that I did before. (if you don’t have kids, that is in no way meant to sound patronising or exlusive…it’s more to do with my personality type than anything)
Anyway, if you’re a mum and resonate with any of this, I encourage you to give it a read too.